fucking suckss, like its ridiculous. im so depressed, bipolar and im never GENUINELY happy. like nothing ever goes my way, and i work my ass off. i could never get what the fuck i want. like im not even a bad person, anything i want even if its good, has consequences. my life’s so fucked up mann, i wish i could start over. idk wht to do, i just want to cry. i feel like sucha fuck up and everything i fuckin do is wrong. i feel like nobody’s really there for me, i feel so alone. like im empty and idk why. i just fuckin hate feeling like this all the time and i just want to change but idk wtf to do. i’ve never been this depressed & idk if im making sense. but idc im the only one who has to understand myself. i just wish i didn’t feel so alone inside and i don’t tlk to my friends abt this type of shit because there no help like honestly. im always getting played, lied to so im my only friend at the end of the day. and i miss my ex-bestfriend alot. i just wish i could rewind time back to about 2 years. but why ? idk things would prbly still be the same. i just hope for this negative spirit to go away and i could actually enjoy my life like i should be.
the plants name is called “makahiya” and hiya in tagalog means “shy”.
whenever you touch the plants leaves, they immediately fold up together looking as if its really shy hence the name.
(Source: jaidefinichon, via fleethescene)